one more thought about best friends i remember that too it was really fun i hope it gets warm again real soon i cant wait to go to the park again with you two love mom i look for girls with purses that compliment mine one thing i enjoy about facebook is the old pictures that friends and fam upload to walk down memory lane together with you do you have to be obsessed with yarn and needles and hooks like i am to think that is the most inviting little space youve ever seen i bet that block is not nearly as big as i remember it being but i remember it being quite a trip like this one for instance my older brother uploaded it while reminiscing about the old buggie he rebuilt in the 80s different boyfriends came and went through all this some i thought i could marry some i was mad at myself for hanging around some that broke my heart hey my little family where are neighborhoods like that anymore with bushes big enough to hide in and kids that go around the block together all afternoon and normal sized houses and the old winkfields next door ok i dont need the winkfields but id sure love to give my kids the rest i am given glimpses of the why and the good and the reasons and the plan the bigger picture and the necessity for some to not fit the mold she follows me around all day just in case she might be needed for something anything cute little penny is just a wee dog but she feels strongly that part of her duty is to scare the crap out of anyone who gets near our house just so they know no one is going to mess with her family not on her watch she is undeterred by bigger animals and scary men- they all get yelled at to stay away but we feel more blessed and amazed than ever at lifes unexpected twists and turns and how happy we are that there is a loving heavenly father that understands the little picture we have in our minds for our lives and gently and lovingly helps us change our vision to a masterpiece i really love life seriously though my closest friends are fun real and honest good entertaining in love with life a little crazy down to earth deep and incapable of bs it made me happy ok its hard to stop i love every song and i cheat like alot well usually i ease up on weekends but i feel so crappy and bloated again that i cant wait to start eating right on monday but i have kind of had to tell myself this is just the new lifestyle and if i want to indulge every now and again im going to cause id rather die than not be able to have some chips and guac or a slice of cake every now and again so if i eat like this 90% of the time then ive noticed that my body or the scale doesnt mind if i wander in my choices a bit the other 10% exercising everyday helps with this too i feel like its a great trade off- feeling great and a regular period for a little self control 1 luce 2 Untitled 3 Working 4 Stove Top from anthro it was the first time i realized that things dont always go how you think they will and that it all can turn out better than you imagined